I’m not that girl …but sometimes I want to be.
We aren’t in the same place we used to be — we used to stand beside each other, but now we stand apart.
Sometimes I want to be that girl…
I miss you, but that’s not something I can tell you anymore. I’ve lost my place and my footing is shaky as I try to navigate the ground beneath my quivering feet.
I want to hear your voice and know how you are, but that’s something I can no longer ask.
I want to see your face, reach out and touch you, but we’re too far apart now …and its much more than simply miles that separate us.
I want you to be happy, truly, you more than anyone …I’m just sad I’m no longer a part of the world that brings about your smile.
I’m not the girl to put you in that spot — the point where you feel like you have to make a choice, but sometimes I wish I was…
All the things I want to say …I won’t… because that’s not fair to you. …So, I’ll say it here …the words I never got to say and the words I always wanted to say, the words I’ve replayed over and over in my head that I’ve wanted you to hear from my lips…
I love you. I’m sorry I never said it to your face so you could see the warmth my love for you brings me.
But, I said this to you all the time …I miss you… and I still do.
The irony is that you’ll never read this, so you’ll never know.
I’m not the girl to take that leap …but sometimes I wish I was…
It’s always a difficult line to navigate…
- Do you tell someone how you feel (regardless of the circumstances)?
- Do you say nothing?
- Do you risk rejection?
- Do you risk the chance that they might reciprocate (no matter how much time has passed)?
- Do you put someone you care about in a compromising?
- Or …Do you simply love them from right where you are?
What do you do?